Doctor Who: The End of Time Part 2
Jan 3rd
Honestly, I hated both parts of The End of Time. I thought the story was dumb and poorly written… but I expected that from Russell T. Davies. Still, seeing David Tennant go (and the way he did) tore me to pieces and I cried terribly hard.
I am looking forward to the next series of Who with Steven Moffatt at the helm. The episodes he wrote were always my favorites. I heard Richard Curtis (Notting Hill, Love Actually, Vicar of Dibley, et al) may even be writing an episode.
Vermin.
Jan 2nd
I feel the need to document the fact that there is a very loud mouse living inside my wall right now.
Grad School Woes
Dec 27th
I got 2 Bs and an A- for my first real semester of grad school. So, my grade total will be 3 Bs and 1 A-… Bs aren’t cutting it, for me. I read the stats of graduate students on the Livejournal community applyingtograd and they are all 4.0 undergrad and MA students with perfect GRE scores, awards, participation in conferences, etc. etc. etc.
I’ve always hated overachievers. I’ve always wanted to be one of them.
The job climate is rough all over, and I’m wary of saying that it is especially so in academia. Tenure-track jobs seem to be becoming a thing of the past. On one hand, that’s a good thing. From the perspective of wanting job security, it’s horrible.
I have to look at grad school as the career track, really, and it’s so frustrating because I’m stumbling. I want to make myself into an ideal candidate for a job by the time I am through, but I feel like I’m constantly behind.
I look at that applyingtograd community and see people writing their statements of purpose from undergrad to a PhD program and the are already well-versed in theory. What undergraduate programs are doing that? I never had any of those opportunities.
Granted, I never sought any real opportunities out. I’ve kind of floated along by luck. I’ve never studied terribly hard, but I’ve always made As and Bs. Now, I don’t work terribly hard and I make Bs. But Bs aren’t good enough anymore… so I guess I have to learn to work hard.
And opportunities. They don’t come along on their own anymore, at least not often. I’m looking for them now, at my university, and the thing is… I’m not finding them.
I was inducted into the English lit honor society when I was an undergraduate and I think, hey, that’s something to put on the old C.V., that’s an opportunity right there… but…
There’s always a “but.”
I need to connect more with my professors. I need to participate more – try and seek out opportunities to TA, to work in the writing center, if possible. I am really dreading the fact that this may be impossible.
To be honest, I’m pretty unhappy with the fact that my MA degree is going to take until 2012 to do. Most programs that I’ve seen seem to tout an MA as being only a year long. Granted, I am going to do a thesis and that requires time… BUT. BUT BUT BUT.
Maybe I should stop reading the blogs of people who have their PhDs but can’t get jobs. Maybe I should stop reading applyingtograd and just continue on in blissful ignorance. Sometimes I get so lost in the prospects of the future that I forget that I really love what I’m learning about all the things I am studying… and sometimes I get so lost that I forget to learn.
But maybe my knowledge of such perils is a good thing. I just need to find a balance between awareness and… passion, I guess.
Literacy Narrative
Nov 26th
My earliest memory involving pre-formal reading and storytelling is that of my dad telling me his invented tales of a little girl and little boy growing up in Nova Scotia. I cannot remember at what age I was when he first began telling me these stories, but it is definitely the first thing I can remember. These stories seemed to have a very loose plot structure. The little boy and little girl from Nova Scotia lived on the Bay of Fundy and usually experienced some kind of weather phenomena, or their experience echoed something from my dad’s own past. There was no overarching moral to his stories; the importance was using my imagination to paint a picture of what a life alternative to my own would be like.
I always remember my parents reading, be it solitary or to me – or even, to each other. My mom would read Sherlock Holmes stories out loud on long trips. My dad would read the Sunday comics to me. When I got to be about 4 years old, he began reading Laura Ingalls Wilder’s “Little House” books to me. That was the first experience of relating to a character in a story from a different time, for me, and it was a really powerful experience. To this day I can remember huge scenes from the “Little House” books as if they were from my own memory. I formed a real relationship with those stories and characters. Personal involvement in stories seems pretty key, looking back. Even with stories like “The Three Billy Goats Gruff,” my family and I would re-enact the scene in which the goats “trip-trap” across the bridge. Every bridge I crossed suddenly had a troll underneath it.
So, reading was very important in my house. It was not something that was explicitly stressed, but rather implicitly so. Even in the television I watched, there was an emphasis on literacy. I learned my alphabet watching Sesame Street. I continued to develop the value of a good story by watching Reading Rainbow and going to the library frequently. I learned how to read outside of the classroom setting. I remember how nerve wracked I was when my mother told my teacher that I could read already and the teacher sat me down in front of fifteen or so of my peers, who weren’t reading yet, and had me read to them. To this day, I remember feeling the embarrassment of stumbling over words, uncertain if I was reading correctly. I thought they would think I was a bad reader or not a reader at all – maybe faking it somehow.
After learning to read, I became voracious. I devoured book after book. My mother would take me to the library on a regular basis and I would walk out with an armload and finish half of them on the car ride home. In the summer, I would participate in the library summer reading initiative, earning prizes for the books I read. I continued reading as if it were a competitive sport in school with Accelerated Reader, always choosing the books worth the most points and reading them as quickly as I could. I would regularly be at the top of the Accelerated Reader list as far as who had the most points, as a result.
I remember honing my skills as a reader by recording myself reading a story I had written and illustrated. The cover was made of leftover wallpaper and my drawings and near illegible scrawls were stapled inside. I vaguely remember it being about a dog named BoBo. Everyone had a story about BoBo the dog, as it was part of a handmade flash card system my teacher used to teach us phonics.
mom & me
Nov 9th

mom & me
Originally uploaded by kerrielisabeth
This is an old picture of me and my mother. I think it adequately depicts our relationship.
I ♥ my mommy.
What a Sunday lie-in looks like….
Nov 8th

Anglophile as always, I’m listening to the BBC Radio 1 chart show. Thinking about going to buy some black skinny jeans at the Gap later to prematurely reward myself for working on a presentation I have to do on Monday.
Confessions and Asides
Oct 23rd
I write in my sleep. No, really. Does anyone else do this I wonder? I’m certain they do. I’ve done this since high school. I should keep a notebook and a pencil at bedside, but I don’t. I usually think that my idea is brilliant enough that I will remember it, but this is rarely the case. When will I ever learn my lesson? I got lucky in the past day and a half and had something to scribble on as I faded in and out of that realm between asleep and awake, where I’m barely conscious enough to have rational though…
I’m a horrible graduate student, I must admit. I don’t keep up with my readings. I just can’t force myself to read all of something, sometimes even any of something, when it doesn’t hold my interest. I desperately need to overcome this because it creates huge gaps in my education that I might need! I’m sure it already has. I must have read fewer book than any person holding a BA in English. The real problem is that I’m a snob. I don’t even like reading trashy genre fiction (despite a former affinity for the Twilight series… I’m ashamed. very ashamed).
Right now I’m working on a short essay on the “new woman” of 1890s literature. It’s a topic that I actually find very interesting and would love to expand upon it, but the resources at my library are sorely, sorely lacking. I could get stuff on interlibrary loan, something I’ve never done before, but I really am not prepared to go through with that hassle just yet. Besides, with the amount of work I have to do within the next few weeks… I just don’t know. I need to write two papers this weekend and begin preparing for a group project.
I really had no goal with this little bloglet. I suppose I could express my disdain for group projects, but that is something that everyone shares, so why bother adding my vitriol?






