image stolen from flickr user londoninflames

The thing about having a blog on the internet is that you really ought to have an educated opinion and something to say before you start. Therein lies my problem. I’m only just beginning to educate myself and I’m trying to figure out what I want to say and how to say it. It’s a process not just of self-discovery, but of discovering the world around me… becoming aware in so many ways. It’s not a pretty thing to behold, it will often be awkward and sometimes be wrong. It’s a bit scary, already, having a few comments from people I don’t know already offering me bits of information. Part of me wants to feel very offended, like a teenager being told, “no, really, that’s actually going to be a lot of overwhelming work.” But, I know I can’t be offended really.

I keep forgetting that I can do whatever I want with this, despite knowing that I shouldn’t really be doing it like I am. It’s mine. I can have it if I want to have it. If I want to just post a short blog saying, “look at this cool thing I found!” I CAN DO THAT. I feel more free when no one is looking, though.

I am usually a quiet person because I feel like if I can’t say something that will make everyone marvel, then I’d best just keep my mouth shut. But why not speak up? Why not be awkward and incorrect? It’s the plot to every single girl-empowerment movie EVER. (Speaking of which, I really want to see Whip It!)

I think I need an “it’s okay” tag, because the constant reminder to myself – and to anyone who might ever read anything I write – is that it’s okay.  Just be yourself. It’s okay.